changes

2 days left until i leave for barbados! i haven't even started packing yet for that. i've been so busy with everything else. But i'll most likely do it tommorow.(i'm the best procrastinator).
well, i have a little over a week left of living here at home. It hasn't been that bad these past few weeks. Even so, i still need to be on my own. Well, at least not living with my mom. I'll just feel better, and it'll help me just move on with my life like i really need to do. I was worried about the internet situation when i move, because it would have been a little while till i would have been able to get back on line, but my roomate has roadrunner(like i do now) already hooked up, and so i'll be able to get right online when i move in!! SWEET!!! I still have to figure out how i'm moving all this shit.... i might just ask Mark Phillips if i can use his van again. Then i gotta con some people into helpin me move next friday. So two tasks i have to hop on as soon as i get back from barbados.
I've been feeling really out of it lately. Like i don't have anything to live for. I honestly don't believe that, but that's the feeling i've been getting. i think i just need to take vitamins a bit more oftenm and excercise regularly. that will be easier now that the weather allows it. I can play sports again!!! wooo hooo!! I think i'll be ok once i get through thses transitions and get back on my feet again! I'm not worried. i always come out on top eventually.
Speaking of pills, i;m going on medicine for my anxiety now. It's about time, but as some of you know, i really hate taking medicine, and especially pills. But these will help me out tremedously. Maybe i'll feel normal, and will be able to talk to people without being nervous to where i just don't go at all. So a lot of changes are about to happen, but all of them good. Wish me luck!

Stay true to yourself and always remember the people who have been there for you through thick and thin. They are the real heroes!!