You know, when you feel like nothing is going right in your life, you always get something that tells you that you are worth something and can go on. Well.....Quinn is that thing in my life. Lately i have felt completely worthless. I've been told that i am the greatest person some people have ever met, but then all of what they say has been thrown right back in my face. I feel like moving away from everything, and never coming back! But Quinn has given me hope people.
Quinn is the type of friend that you know will ALWAYS be there when you need them. The type that keeps you grounded with God, the type that will be there for you no matter what, and will take your feelings and concerns into consideration. Quinn the one of the only people in my life who takes my advice when i have it. Has he been steered wrong? I think not. Because he trusts me, and i trust him. Even when we cannot express some things to one another(which is rare) we still understand each other. He is like my brother. No one comes close to where I hold him in my heart. He always keeps his word....He has never lied to me nor tried to screw me, nor talk behind my back. I owe a lot to this man. We have gone though so much together, and i appreciate his good will and endless amount of heart. He truly is a BEST friend, and i'm glad to have him in my life.
I've been pretty depressed these days, i don't really feel like saying why, but it has been taking a toll on me for a while. There is just something i don;t understand about some people. If they really want to be your friend...why would they do something that hurts you so much? At first i thought it was selfishness. But they can be so giving and understand to the situation. Then i thought it was just plain carelessness. Maybe not that either. I give up to trying to figure people out. The more i tell me feelings, the more things happen that hurts me again. I need to be stronger than that, because i'm worth so much more than that! I'm a fucking good person, and either people recognize that, or just kee going on with your life as though you can't change anything. CHOICES people. that is what life is made of, and all you have to do is make up your mind. Keep a best friend, or loose them just for a curiosity that is going to go away soon anyway, and will eventually give you so much grief you won't be able to handle anything.
Sorry, i needed to vent a bit. I figure not naming names is a good thing. Especially because i never am only talking about one person. I'm talking about all of the people who have done it. Well, time for bed. I took a good ling drive, and had some good quality time 2nite. I have to cook at 8 in the morning, then go to Buffalo for a gig right after work tommorow. So i need some sleep. Out!!!!
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:( i love u! and i'm here for you anytime u wanna talk. ~jdw~
well i'm glad you have quinn around as your BEST friend.i'm glad you have someone to vent to. i'm glad you have jlw people who love you. and why in hell is this person in question, the "friend who has hurt you so much" all that important to you in the first place? You have Quinn, who is a BEST friend.why bother with some asshole who doesnt even qualify as BEST and doesnt come close to where quinn is in your heart (as you said). just give them up and tell them rather than writing scathing remarks about them all over for the internet to read. why dont you just get the fuck rid of them. why dont you just go out there and reach for all the attention in the world instead of facing the goddamn problem. and then hurting people in the process. it would have been FAIR if you had posted the other side fo the story. but you dont think that way. congratulations. i have a nice life with your nice best friend as you toss everyone further and further out the window. ~K
dev, i loves ya kid. *hugs* see you thurs.
-- flips
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